Not so out of reach.

How funny is life? It amuses me greatly it is the best entertainment around, More so if you know what direct your life is going and the people around you are like chickens with their heads cut off.
After my last post of BD being out of reach many things in a short amount of time chanced, Within 24 hours we had decided to go out on a date, the only time both of our agendas are free is early December. He again confessed his love his deepest feelings and desires towards me.
In this short change of things I have also found out he is an arrogant person which has made me a little upset, BD has taken credit for things that has had nothing to do with him. If it is one thing that really gets on my nerve it is people taking credit for others work, just because they are attention seekers and want a pat on the back for a job well done but to lazy to actually do the work! Needless to say I want to impregnate my stiletto up his anal canal.
My plan is to sit back and watch how things develop, see what steps he takes next. You see I am a person who can just wipe someone from my life without a second thought no matter who they are or how much I love them, For example my own mother, 13 years ago I wiped her from my life and I have no problems with it at all. I give people the benefit of the doubt but if one abuses trust over and over again it is "game over" and there is no reset button.
So BD if I mean so much to you as you have said you will pull your nose in, if not I can not wait till our date as I will rub your nose in what you can not have. It is my job to know people I have portfolio's coming out my ears no not think I have nothing on you as I do and I will use it to my advantage to make you see what you can not have.

Out of reach

Sometimes in life there are things you just know, without a doubt 100% rock solid "KNOW".
BD is something I know I want, The minute I seen him there was fireworks, It is the only way I can explain it and that is only because I see it on TV, the feeling I had was unexplainable and it still is.
Last night was a late night, 02:30 listening to music with BD, many tears shed and smiles broke, am emotional roller coaster that come to a screeching halt when one thing was misunderstood from some days ago and believe it or not it was about stiletto's.
I am a lady and I exude femininity I love being a female, I turn heads and give whiplash due to double takes, I am far from being on the cover of vogue, though I would not want that for me it is not my calling in life.
I am a caring person, a lover, I give all to the person I am with (with one exception) I would drop everything to be with BD, my whole world could stop, I would turn the world on its head, get every star from the sky just to be in his arms.
The energy exchanged when we talk or see each other is so powerful there has to be something in between us to block the intensity. We both want each other but there is something holding us back, maybe we are scared of it, maybe it is because it can be so perfect.
I have come to face the facts I can not have him. We are always making rules/excuses not to be with each other, He is not ready he is out of a relationship months ago and likes his alone time, A neutral rule we made I shall not share it with you, though it is a goal We/I will never be able to reach, not within the next year or more.
I believe BD deserves the best, to treat him well, to love, protect and honour him, to treat him the way he deserves, nothing but being number one in someones world, I know I can give him this.
We say we are perfect for each other though we always hold back and deep down know we will never be together.
What do I hear you say? Never say never? Time will tell but this is something so close yet so far out of reach.

The Menu

As arranged I was picked up for breakfast this morning, in his black pin stripped suit as I asked, he is taking my breath away with how he thinks and acts it amazes me someone pays such attention to detail and punctuality (though there is a contradiction coming up)
RR was a little nervous as he is forgetting to be a gentleman sometimes though I must say I was also nervous and I am unsure why. We went for a drink and food, they had totally nothing on the menu I could eat so I settled for a tomato juice, The talking was just to pass time I love learning about him even if I do all the babbling, Sometimes I just need to slap myself to shut up I must bore the pants off him, I do not care he knows who is in charge and is the boss and it is not him!
We went driving and got a few questions out in the open I offered him free range to ask me whatever he wanted and I would give direct nothing held back honest answers, he went for some mild questions ~grins~ you men just need to be blunt and stop beating around the bush. With my questions I went straight for the jugular and loved seeing him squirm in is lovely red leather seats!
There is a click between us that actually worries me a little that I shall sit on and think about as I am unsure why it worries/scares me.
I am in your mind RR, you know I am and I plan on staying there and having you for my personal little toy boy.
We need a night or weekend away you need to arrange it with the g/f, yes little boy you have a "business" trip coming up very soon and it is with me and it is some business that needs some serious attention!

Free Agenda

I have cleared my agenda for the week, I need a rest, to much work and no play makes Veiled boring! I went to the gym to work out and then relax in the sauna but I did make one appointment today.
16:30 I finished my appointment and went to one more interesting! The person I spent most of Saturday online and on the phone with I met tonight, it was lovely, though he did turn up late!
He had also just left a meeting and was in grey pin stripped suit which instantly worked for me!
We sat and talked for a while, the look in his eyes made me want to devour him.
He had to take something to a work colleague so we went driving, stepping into his car just added to me wanting to devour him, leather interior, the smell of leather seems to do something to me and he noticed!
The night was delightful and he is a very nice person even if we did not get to having a drink though that will be solved tomorrow when we have breakfast together, it would be him making me breakfast in bed but my house is in the middle of improvements, maybe next time.
RR I look forward to my breakfast, if your not careful you will be on the menu.

Quiet weekend.

It has been a nice quiet weekend ~touch wood~ I hope my statement is not to premature seeing it is not even midday.
My weekends are usually quiet due to the fact that the boys are with their partners.
I enjoy my quiet weekends even if I have some paperwork to do it is quiet, relaxing and the telephone is nice and quiet.
Yesterday was interesting, I meet a sweet person online, I do not have time or chat often online so it was a nice surprise, after a few hours chatting online I gave him my number and he called me as I was going out for a nice walk in the winter air.
I was out for a while in the lovely weather, the sun was shinning though it was close to freezing point it was very nice to be out. The whole time while out I was on the telephone.
RR is handsome, tall, blond hair, blue eyes and you guessed it he is in a relationship. I learnt that later on, his girlfriend was at work that is why he was online.
Like I said he is very sweet, also very handsome, lets see how/what develops

So Early so eventful

I got my 07:30 wake up call from KE we had the usual talk and he made me smile, he hung up the phone when he was at the office and said he would call me later in the day before he heads off to the Canary Islands for a vacation with his wife, You see he is working on the marriage, Can't you see he is working on it? when he is calling me and begging me to be with him always?
A text arrived on my phone at 08:30 whilst I was in the shower, It was a distress call I presume as JP was caught last night from his girlfriend and had a lot of explaining to do, this is how I have heard it happened.
He got home at 22:00 the g/f was not home but had made dinner for herself and left, he was left to make a sandwich for himself. This frustrates me greatly, it really gets on my nerves when a female does not look after her man well and is self centered like this female! He was also frustrated and said to me he was hanging up the phone to make a sandwich then crawl into bed.
I sent him a text not even one minute later saying I worry about him as his tone of voice implied something was upsetting him, little did I know that some seconds earlier the g/f arrived home hours early and asked to use his phone. She used JP's phone and read his text message from me which put him in some boiling water as I can imagine.
Well apparently I am now Irish, I do not know how but it is something that saved his bacon I guess and I am now expecting an email from him when he has, in his words "Sat down and thought about everything and what he wants"
We all know how this ends right? Better the devil you know. A man never leaves the wife or g/f for the Mistress and anyways who said I would want that anyways, Even if I have deep feelings for the person.
I sit and I wait to see the outcome of it all what an eventful morning already and it is just over 09:00

Compact is better.

Today I was in the south of the country attending to some work and meetings, I knew this yesterday so I contacted my ex (mentioned in the last entry) and informed him I wanted a few of my things back that I needed, I had no intentions to be staying long at his house or to have any kind of chat as it was going to be between meetings and it was a two hour drive from meeting to meeting.
While arriving in front of his house I seen his mother head for the stairs faster then any lightening I had ever seen, it was quiet amusing actually, I got out of the car, placed my jacket on and headed for the front door, he was there waiting as soon as I seen him I just about threw up. What did I ever see in this person? He looked very unwell and also seems he is not taking care of himself in more ways then one, he utterly smelt!
I went inside for some minutes and laughed internally when his mother showered her face and she had to pick up her jaw off the ground when seeing me, which was exactly the same her son had to do when he opened the door.
Let me explain, The last time I seen him which was only a few weeks ago (The beginning of September) I was a lot bigger and also not in the state of mind to take total care of myself, meaning cloths and make-up, My self confidence has sky rocketed and everyone has noticed it, I have also lost a huge amount of weight, three dress sizes to be exact.
I had a tea got my things and left, this was not before I turned on my selective hearing because he was driving my insane with remarks on how stunning I was looking and why he ever treated me so bad, Well guess what little boy ? look drool and dream as this you will never have! Never Again yes I dare to say Never!
Heading off to the next meeting I was about to die of hunger so I stopped and tanked the car and got a nice healthy sandwich, When I was paying someone tapped me on the shoulder and said "Hi gorgeous" I turned with a smile as I knew the voice, out of all the people in the world it was the person I was racing to for the meeting, we decided to take the next exit of the highway as we both knew a nice place for a drink and something to eat and we would take care of business there.
Arriving at the cafe he stepped out of his car and was in fits of laughter, I looked at him and asked what was so funny? I looked at my shoes, top, dress pants, everything was in order. I was getting frustrated with his laughter he now had tears rolling down his face. We were escorted to a table, my jacket was taken from me and we were seated, thank goodness he has stopped laughing and pulled himself together then he asked me

Business-man "Why do you drive such a car?"
Me "Why not such a car?"
BM " Well you know being in the position your in and all"
Me " Yes and?"
BM " Don't you think it will set a better impression is you had a more upper class car?"
Me " No, as people hire me for my brain not my car"
BM " True but if you roll up in such a compact car it, well it looks strange"
Me " So you mean if I had a car like yours a brand new BMW with all options it makes me look smarter and better at my work?
BM " Well no it does not mean that, it just means your more successful"
Me " No I think it just shower having my smaller car I do not have to compare my dick size to yours"
~ grinning as I open my folder of papers and seeing him with his mouth opened catching flies then I added with a smile "Now shall we talk about the conference coming up?

What was more entertaining about this conversation was the fact he was talking in a rather loud voice and the people behind us and to our side also heard the conversation, all happening to be businessmen also, they all put their heads down and go back to their laptops and paperwork after my comment.
Looking outside into the car park it was full of all these new flashy BMW's , Mercedes, Audi's and so on, these in between all the optional extra cars was my little shinning compact car, yes it is a this years model, yes it gets me from point A to point B and no I have nothing to prove and no penis to compare to yours. I am a Business Woman I am good at what I do and if I turned up on my bicycle it does not make me any better or worse at my job!

A little of the past

I had a lover for two years, he was younger then me, five years to be exact, no one could tell me there was something wrong with him, I would not hear it as he was perfect, young and handsome he was a real prince riding the white horse. When he hugged me the whole world stood still, nothing could harm me when I was in his arms, he lived with my boyfriend and I, my boyfriend was unaware of our relationship.
It all come to a crushing stop when I found out he was cheating on me, I hear you ask how is that possible when I was actually cheating, well this is how I see it, I was nothing but honest to him about everything, nothing hidden, if I was hiding something it was from my boyfriend not my lover and I expected the same back from him.
I was actually in love with this person and I gave him chance after chance but I found out he is a compulsive liar, I was weak, very weak with him but it will be no more.
For his birthday which I was invited to I stayed no longer then five minutes, I entered the house that he now shared with his mother, yes he is a real mummy boy, thirty something and living with mum because she cries "I need you", I entered, gave him the things I had left at my house that was from him, slapped his face very hard and walked out.
Explain that to mum little boy, How you are a cheater like she is, how you lied over and over and played with peoples feelings, not only mine but the six others you were playing with, I am just lucky I am a smart female and remember not to trust males and always use protection, never forget anything in the heat of the moment, I just wonder how many females out there now have the sexually transmitted diseases you have?
I may be your ex and you are mine but that does not mean I am out of the loop about you foolish boy, all your lovers and ex lovers know who I am and are not scared to ask me anything, have you not noticed how your little black book is that, little and getting smaller by the day, like your cock, oh yes just to clear the air of a lie I told, you never made me cum I always faked it.

Wake up

After going to bed at 01:00 which is a usual time for me, I had all my paperwork done so I can have my day free tomorrow now being today to sleep in and dream all morning.
No such luck, the boyfriends alarm woke me at 05:45, he always sleeps through his alarm so I shook him awake, kicked him out of bed and into the shower then I went back to sleep only to be woken again by him slapping me on the arse telling me how good my arse is looking from all the working out I have been doing, needless to say he got bombarded with a delightful ray of my colourful vocabulary. That was it, I could not sleep anymore, I settled back into bed looking at the ceiling wondering what to do today.
he is not allowed to hang up the phone because this guy at the door looked like he was just released from prison. I got a text from JP at 07:00 asking if I was awake, I replied so then he called me, we had a little chinwag and I devoured him with my thoughts of our next meeting, he was lucky to be in a traffic jam at the time as he informed me he was unable to get out of the car due to his suit pants being on the edge of exploding open. He put me on hold three times because of the girlfriend calling and complaining her Internet connection kept dropping out. I have seen this girls picture and she is blond for a reason, she even admits she is demanding and high maintenance, also a sandwich short of a picnic.
The conversation ended when he arrived at work and I proceeded to make a tea, then without fail KE called on the way to the office with regular "blah blah blah" while on the phone to him the doorbell went and it shocked me, what was someone doing at my door at 08:15? It was the electrician I forgot they were coming today to change the meters, I informed KE he was not allowed to hang up the telephone at all as this person at my door looked like he had just escaped from prison, the vibes I got from this person were not warm fuzzy feelings at all!. KE kept on the phone as long as he could though he had to hang up when he left for a meeting and I was left with a monkeys arse ugly little perv who looked either Turkish or from India, either way I was not impressed with this little midgets passes at me.
He was here to change the meters yet all he done was try and touch me, this little worm was even walking around inviting himself to make dinner for me, trying to get close to me and hug me with an erection that was trying to rip out of his already skin tight pants. I was disgusted and felt rather violated, When he left he informed me that he has my number and knows where I live, we will see about that little boy there is no chance you will be putting that knowledge to any use! On a final note, your 5'1 arse will be reported to your company!

Right on time!

It is 17:00 and my phone starts ringing every week day at this time.
There are three males who call me on a regular basis, JP calls on his way home to his girlfriend, KE calls in the morning on the way to the office after kissing his wife goodbye, also on the way home from the office before he greets his wife, PH he calls often also for hours, he is single.
Today JP called right on 17:00, He always makes me smile, we chatted about the regular things like work and how the weekend was, I should know by now not to ask about that he will always whine down the telephone to me about the girlfriend and how he needs me and wants to be with me. ~yawns~
JP was begging to see me this week, though this week our agendas do not match, he is out of the country two times this week and I am also, I shall not lose any sleep over it, He is the one stressing out over when he can get away from his always complaining girlfriend.
While on the phone I heard it beep and it was KE calling, it seems he was not impressed I was not answering his call, he left two voice mails and three texts messages. My phone beeped again it was PH, he left a little text that made me smile and I answered him as soon as I was off the phone.
I do enjoy my little calls from the boys as long as they do not whine so much. I know what to buy them for Christmas, some cheese for their whine, then again I can't as their partners might ask questions.
Boys just know this, be as demanding as you like, I live my life my way and in no way shape or form does it revolve around you.

I bis you bis

I had a day off yesterday it was well deserved though I had an appointment in the afternoon, Should I say evening ~huge grin~
I have been dating this guy (lets call him JP) JP is handsome, successful and also involved, He is ever so delightful to be with.
JP landed at the airport at 22:00 and I informed him I shall leave my house and drive in the direction of the airport, when he landed he was to call me. As I was driving towards him I seen a lovely looking hotel "The Ibis" I stopped and booked a room for the night. Here I have to make something clear JP had told his partner he was flying onto the next place of business and getting a hotel there, little did she know he was only 30 minutes from her and not in the country he said he was.
JP called and I told him where I was, he arrived shortly after, He look very handsome. I love a man in a suit and if it is pin stripped oh how I will devour him.
We checked in and he was a little frustrated due to the looks I was getting, Arriving at the room he commented on my clothing, as he should I looked stunning in my black skirt and stockings accompanied with stilettos and a delightful blouse.
It was not long before I ordered him to take his top off and be ready for a massage, he was totally relaxed in minutes then play time was over, I got him naked.
He had (yes had) never cheated on his girlfriend but you see there is something about me you do not know, not only am I Dominant in work, I am also in the bedroom, nothing feels more natural then a whip in my hands!
JP being only a beginner to the BDSM things I was rather light on him which is more then he deserved, Some CBT (cock ball torture) much nipple torture along with tickling and the most lovely of all, pressure point pain. I mix pain with pleasure so he was taken care of with stimulating his sense's, feeding him things he has never had before, touching him in places and ways he has only dreamt of, the night turned into morning which turned into having intercourse, it was amazing after a dry spell of months, he is not a big boy by far but it felt like he took my virginity I was so tight. Once was not enough for me and due to the fact he told me his recovery time was very long I had a point to prove, I can say to you honestly and knowing it first hand his recovery time is short.
Departing from the hotel at 09:30 was bitter sweet, little does JP know I actually have deep feelings for him though I did get a night with him and desires were met. We both left the hotel with a hug, kiss and wink and him with a guilty feeling, racing off out of the car park was the last I seen of him that day though not the last I heard from him, he contacts me daily.
That day we were both late for our morning meetings and appointments not that we cared seeing the high we were both on.

Who is Veiled Secrets

Hello and welcome to my blog, My name is Veiled, Veiled Secrets,
To the outside world I am a caring loving person. I take good care of my boyfriend and people around me, My family and friends mean the world to me.
There are only three people in this world who know about my veiled secrets.
One, Is my father who I love and respect highly, He is the reason I am as successful as I am. Always a respectful man never a cheater, that I have learnt from my mother.
Two, A friends I have met online, She lives close to me we talk often over a glass of wine sharing stories and desires that not many could understand.
Three, My best friend in the world, she loves be for who I am and tolerates me ~kisses to you~
This blog will tell about my Veiled Secrets, My day to day secrets which usually involve, work, travel, kinkiness, teasing and men.
If I was a male I would be called a hero though I am not male and I am not a hero, I am me. Maybe you label me different, That's is your right, I have my point of view and you are allowed yours.